i am mentally divergent

Title Love is Blind
Author xlivvielockex
Rating PG-13
Word Count 100
Characters/Pairing (if any) Peter Vincent/Ginger
WARNING: SPOILERS
A/N: I came out of Fright Night (2011) shipping the hell out of these two. Not beta'ed.

( It is also stupid )

For those not on Tumblr or Twitter, I am alive. I did survive my surgery.

Now I have four long weeks of recovery and four new big ass scars to show for it. I'm feeling better already, already seeing the positive outcomes from the surgery after just one week. Those first few days though, I cried a lot and screamed "never again".

I'm bored as hell though. I can watch tv, knit, listen to music, read, get on the computer, and play video games. That is about it. It's amazing how much you miss bending over when you are barred from doing it. Being on the computer for long periods of time is hard for me sadly so it's mostly been tv watching and listening to audiobooks. I can only use my laptop because of the position I have to stay in and it doesn't have photoshop or my SIMS on it. :(

The pain is manageable and not as intense as my first surgery. They discovered a lot of damage from the first botched procedure so I'm supposed to meet with a malpractice attorney as soon as I am cleared to drive. (That will be in about another week to 10 days they said)

I know I missed a lot of flisting stuff so please link me. I went back about 600 entries before I couldn't do it anymore. Thanks for all the well wishes too. I know the positive vibes really helped me through it. I could feel it. No lie.

EXCLUSIVE: Charisma Carpenter: "You Need To Get It Out That I'm A Proud Latina!"

By Lee Hernandez | 07/20/2011 - 20:10

Her name is Charisma Carpenter and she’s best known for playing all-American cheerleader Cordelia Chase on the hit TV show, Buffy the Vampire Slayer. But there’s something many people don’t know about Charisma—she’s Latina! “I think it’s the best kept secret ever,” said the sweet actress, whose grandfather was born in Spain. “You need to get it out that I’m a proud Latina!”

Charisma says she’s been trying to tell people she’s Latina for years—but they don’t believe her. “They’re not buying it,” she says. “I feel a little rejected by the Latina community. I say that in jest—I don’t sincerely mean it. But I mean…a little bit.”

The talented actress, who has a huge fan base for her work on Buffy and its spinoff, Angel, thinks she knows why people don’t believe she’s Latina. ”I guess I’m too white, too pale,” she says. “I guess they’ve never seen me tan…I don’t know.”

The 40-year-old actress says she wasn’t raised speaking Spanish—but there’s a reason for that. “My grandfather had a pretty terrible experience being in America and being from Spain,” she says sounding a bit more serious. “He came to this country as an immigrant with his family. He was a crop picker: strawberries, cotton, all that kind of stuff. And what would happen back in those days is that parents would go away and send their small children to a boarding house or an orphanage.”

Charisma says it must have been a crooked operation because her abuelo was smuggled out of the orphanage in the middle of the night, with his aunt, and adopted out to an American family who mistreated, mocked, and humiliated them. “{They} thought it was so precious and adorable that they spoke Spanish. They would make them sing in Spanish in front of their friends. Their friends would come over and they were the entertainment, so to speak,” she says.

Charisma says the ordeal was very painful for her grandfather. “He was embarrassed by it, so he chose to forget the {Spanish} language,” she says. “He refused to speak it. So my parents weren’t raised speaking Spanish.”

Still, Charisma says she managed to learn Spanish on her own. “I took Spanish since I was in the sixth grade and I lived in Mexico for a couple of years {her dad relocated there for work} when I was in high school,” she says. “I went to a school that had a strong Latino environment in Southern San Diego—about six miles from the border, so I {grew up} in the culture.”

This weekend, Charisma says she’s attending a Latino film festival in support of the new film, Without Men, which stars Latinas Eva Longoria, Judy Reyes, and Kate Del Castillo. “I’m going to support Eva!” she says enthusiastically.

BTVS [51]
Breakdown: Willow/Tara, Spike/Buffy, Cordelia/Angel, Amy, Jenny, Angel, Cordelia, Giles, Willow, Buffy, Spike
ATS [33]
Breakdown: Cordelia, Wes, Kate, Angel, Doyle, Cordelia/Angel, Cordelia/Doyle, Lindsey, Gunn, Fang Gang
OTHER [5]
Breakdown: Firefly, Dollhouse

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( 89 Icons from 2010 )

Title Let's just forget about the future and get on with the past
Author xlivvielockex
Rating PG
Word Count 246
Characters/Pairing (if any) Charisma Carpenter/David Boreanaz
WARNING: RPF. This is a work of fiction, thought up by my strange imagination. Situations are not real and if you aren't a fan of RPF, then please just stroll on by. Thank you!
A/N: Futurefic piece that is weird and came to me out of nowhere. Not beta'ed. Title inspired by Sting's Forget About The Future

( I know we got some history )

After a long discussion and hemming and hawwing, my husband and I decided to get a Wii with our tax return. So far we Indiana Jones 2 and Mario Kart. If anyone has suggestions for games, I'm all ears. And if someone has a Wii and wants our friend code, just let me know. :)

Lifewise, I'm just busy with grad school and attempting to write my C/A fic for the Valentine's Day Smut-A-Thon. I have a pretty good idea and outline, I just need to sit down and write it.

Miss you guys. I can't wait for summer when I can actually be around and do fandom stuff.

Title Babylon
Author xlivvielockex
Rating NC-17
Word Count 100
Characters/Pairing (if any) Iris/Justin from Carnivale
WARNING: INCEST
A/N: Written for angryscientist

( Babylon )

175 Holiday "Smut" Icons:
Bones: 6
Glee: 6
Gossip Girl: 8
Greek: 3
Harry Potter: 3
House: 3
Legend of the Seeker: 18
Other fandoms: 27
Other: 6
Smallville: 6
Supernatural: 4
True Blood: 10
Veronica Mars: 7
Whedonverse: 62
Whoverse: 7

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(  All I want for the holidays is... )

Is there a pairing you want I don't have listed? PLEASE REQUEST IT HERE ON MY REQUEST POST! Requests open until Dec. 5th.

Between the 30 days of TV, 30 days of Whedon, 30 days of Buffy, 30 days of Angel, and 30 days of female awesome (not to mention 30 days for like every fandom ever), I really thought we needed this. I came up with the days with anythingbutgrey and diseased_inside giving feedback before I published it. I really hope this catches on and people do it.

Day One: Favorite non-white male lead character
Day Two: Favorite non-white female lead character
Day Three: Favorite non-white male supporting character
Day Four: Favorite non-white female supporting character
Day Five: Non-white character you relate to
Day Six: Favorite non-white male character on a white-driven show
Day Seven: Favorite non-white female character on a white-driven show
Day Eight: Favorite non-white character in a comedy show
Day Nine: Favorite non-white character in a drama show
Day Ten: Favorite non-white character in a scifi/supernatural show
Day Eleven: Favorite non-white male character who needs more screentime
Day Twelve: Favorite non-white female character who needs more screentime
Day Thirteen: Favorite non-white character in a children's book
Day Foutreen: Favorite non-white character in a YA book
Day Fifteen: Favorite non-white character in a fiction book
Day Sixteen: Favorite non-white character in an action movie
Day Seventeen: Favorite non-white character in a comedy movie
Day Eighteen: Favorite non-white character in a drama movie
Day Nineteen: Favorite non-white character in a sci-fi movie
Day Twenty: Favorite non-white character in an animated show
Day Twenty-One: Favorite non-white character in an animated movie
Day Twenty-Two: Favorite non-white male mythological character
Day Twenty-Three: Favorite non-white female mythological character
Day Twenty-Four: Favorite non-white male character from literature (pre-20th century)
Day Twenty-Five: Favorite non-white female character from literature (pre-20th century)
Day Twenty-Six: Favorite non-white friendship
Day Twenty-Seven: Favorite non-white pairing
Day Twenty-Eight: A non-white male fic rec
Day Twenty-Nine: A non-white female fic rec
Day Thirty: Anything you like

Feel free to interpret it however you like. Just have fun with it and celebrate some really amazing characters!

Hey people!

I am still alive, I know some of you were doubting. Grad school has pretty much killed any attempt at fandom or a social life. I apologize in advance for neglecting everyone on LJ. Things are easing up as we move into term paper season so that is good for me to catch up. I have WAY too many comments to reply to so if you get a reply from something you posted three months to me, sorry. :)

Really quick, I know I have a few RPers on my list. Is there a community for displaced characters? Like if a character was in a game, the game died, they want to get into a game again? Or any communities where a character could put themselves out there for one-on-one play? This is a Buffyverse character, if that helps. Let me know.

I actually had time to read a fic this week, which was awesome, and now you should read it too! I already recced it on Tumblr but here you go, if you aren't following me over there Ceteris Paribus (All Else Being Equal) by beer_good_foamy

( Here's what I wrote for the rec )

Also, if you want, I uploaded Plants vs Zombies, a computer game if anyone wants it and Veronika Decides to Die. Enjoy!

Lastly, under the cut, a hilarious Buffy video that coalitiongirl linked on Tumblr.

( Prepare to laugh )